Saturday, 12 August 2017

Returning From 5 Months Travelling: Feeling Lost and Starting Over

Returning From 5 Months Travelling: Feeling Lost and Starting Over

I guess another hello is in order! The last I spoke to you was 4 months ago, which in terms of my history of consistency is pretty tragic, but also not surprising. I've been away, you see. But if you stuck around this blog and my social, you would know this already. Instagram has become my happy place of traveling spam and is one place I've really loved using whilst I've been away. It's become a place of showing memories that I will probably never forget for as long as I live. It's also been amazing to speak to fellow travelers and pick up tips and recommendations. But one thing that it did most importantly was to make me feel close to home even though I was sometimes over 11,000 miles away! Home seemed like a strange place to me, I felt I still had my roots buried in the English countryside but I was being pulled away to rainforests and elephants, mountains ranges and deep oceans. 

But after a while, I started to settle into the life of a traveler. I became accustomed to packing up my belongings every 3 days to travel to a new place- on the rare occasions we stayed for longer I spread my stuff out like I was unpacking at home! I got used to getting minimal hours of sleep when traveling overnight on buses and trains and found small glimpses of familiarity in bustling cities and tiny villages. 

It was the scariest thing I've ever done, but it also changed my life.

Dramatic, yet completely and utterly true! If you talk to anyone who has been traveling for a long period of time, they will tell you exactly the same thing. It plants that seed of wanderlust inside of you. If you feel like you have wanderlust from a 2 week holiday, the overwhelming feeling you have when you come back from backpacking for 5 months beats that completely. Since returning, I've nearly broken down in tears because I miss where I've been so much. Don't get me wrong, I am a huge 'home bird', and I couldn't wait to come home to see all my family and friends. The feeling that caught me off guard was a sadness- sadness that I was no longer discovering new, beautiful, awe-inspiring places every day. Sadness that the freedom we had to spend our days how we wished without a care in the world apart from keeping safe was no more. 

I think this is quite a common feeling with fellow backpackers. You know that as soon as you get home, the stresses of your everyday life will slowly creep back. However, I feel that my time away has also given me a new drive for life, and to continue that magic feeling of wanderlust back at home. Sounds strange, right? Well, I live in a beautiful country that I've probably not seen more than 10% of. As well as doing days out, I want to do weekends away in the UK as well as traveling abroad. While I have 0 pennies to my name, I want to try camping (we've got a pretty darn good tent so we might as well make use of it)! I hope these little excursions will keep feeding the wanderlust in me until I can save up enough for another big trip.

So, what can you expect from me from now on? I will still be sharing my love for fashion, beauty, and acting, but alongside that I will talk a lot more about travel (of course) and different lifestyle genres like fitness, cooking and homeware (there are a couple of exciting things happening in my life that are inspiring this, that you will hear more about soon).

I can't wait to tell you more about my trip and share some of the amazing places and events I experienced. Thank you as always for sticking around, and here's to more travels on the horizon!